He did it again! It's the morning of the day after Christmas and my wife is still gone. the day did not live up to expectations and a depression crept over my soul. That's when I read this entry from January 19, 2016. In it, I reference a providential reading from a previous entry I had made in my journal and how it helped me. Now I am reading and sharing this journal entry that also referenced a feeling of depression and what I did about it. I will not go into any more details here. You can read below to find those details. What I am testifying to is a chain of entries linked together providentially by my faithful and loving Father to minister to my need. Thank you, Father. Amen!
January 19, 2016
Worship: Lifesong by Casting Crowns
"Lifesong"
Empty hands held high
Such small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight
May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You
Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet
So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Let my lifesong sing to You
Such small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight
May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You
Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet
So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Let my lifesong sing to You
Video: https://youtu.be/Gnf1xczuOrA
Witness: Today was a day of full frontal attacks by the enemy. He began at work while I was singing in my spirit to the Lord. A spirit of depression seemed to come over me and I paused from singing for a few seconds, then recognizing the source, I began to sing again. Then later, my younger daughter texted me concerning finding porn and an Ashley Madison account on her husband’s phone. I said to myself, the devil is making a full-frontal attack on me”. I then warned myself to watch out for his ambush. When I came home my daughter came over and delivered me the ambush. It was a letter from my wife’s friend asking me to help her with information against her husband in their divorce case. However, he wasn’t finished. I shared my daughter’s situation with my friend, who then sought to give me advice. I then responded with how I saw it. Later tonight he texted back, basically attacking my thoughts about it and belittling my ability to analyze her husband’s problem. I have responded with a few words and a prayer. I am hoping that God will bring peace to this situation.
On the good side let me share what I said as an introduction to my blog today:
This entry from August 14 just astounded me. God, in His providence, allowed me to read this just at the right time. You see, I just received a letter from my wife's friend’s wife asking me to call her about the situation and the pending divorce she is seeking from my wife's friend. I prayed for wisdom on whether to respond, though I felt I shouldn't. This confirms that decision. Pray that the truth is revealed to my wife. The Word section also was especially powerful and relevant to my present circumstances, as I deal not only with the situation with my wife, but also my younger daughter's situation with her narcissistic, sex addicted, unfaithful husband.
WORD:
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Ps 24:6 
Such is the generation of those who seek him, 
who seek your face, O God of Jacob.b  Selah 
NIV 
24:6 b  Two Hebrew manuscripts and Syriac (see also Septuagint); most Hebrew manuscripts face, Jacob 
NIV | 
Ps 24:6 
This is the generation of those who seek Him, 
Who seek Your face — even Jacob. Selah. 
NASU 
Such is the character of those who seek him, 
of Ya‘akov, who seeks your face. (Selah) 
CJB 
This [is] a generation of those seeking Him. Seeking Thy face, O Jacob!  
YLT | 
I spent a long time on the phone with another friend getting advice on my son-in-law’s problems with sexual addiction and narcissism. Left me little time for study. I want to close this section with a quote from Spurgeon. There is so much more I could address in this passage, especially in the area of “seeking”.
Even seeking has a sanctifying influence; what a consecrating power must lie in finding and enjoying the Lord's face and favour! To desire communion with God is a purifying thing. Oh, to hunger and thirst more and more after a clear vision of the face of God; this will lead us to purge ourselves from all filthiness, and to walk with heavenly circumspection. He who longs to see his friend when he passes takes care to clear the mist from the window, lest by any means his friend should go by unobserved. Really awakened souls seek the Lord above everything, and as this is not the usual desire of mankind, they constitute a generation by themselves; a people despised of men but beloved of God.
(from The Treasury of David, PC Study Bible formatted electronic database Copyright © 2005, 2006 by Biblesoft, Inc. All rights reserved.)
 
